“Be not afraid,” was what Jesus says very often. To live in fear is a horrible feeling, and I know how it feels like. Fear, is also the opposite of Love.
“Make the most of what you have, with what little you have. Everyday is a new day, live life to the fullest, ” were the words I once told myself. Growing up during my teenage years were the most challenging. I experienced heartaches, disappointments, and the most painful of all – the betrayal of a human heart. I learnt that to protect myself, I need not be true to the other.
Because I was hurt, I decided to take life easily, to seek freedom, and to do the things that I wanted. Because being good and obedient doesn’t take me to places, and so I rebelled. Doing things to spite another, out of hate, out of love. I didn’t even know what love means anymore. So I went from people to people, and places to places, searching for this ‘antidote’ to fill the void within.
Thank God I’m a fighter, and didn’t give up easily. And so my journey continued in searching, and seeking…till this restless heart could take it no longer.
Stay tuned for Part 2: Following the call
Aspiring Writer & Artist
First published on 9th November 2015