I am Gracefully Broken

Here I am, God
Arms wide open
Pouring out my life
Gracefully broken

It is difficult to accept that God has a plan for me. Because growing up I am taught that only through doing can I receive. I didn’t know how to receive because it wasn’t part of my life. Giving I am familiar with. Because I am so used to giving that being broken, and torn apart has always been part of my life. I even used to think that this life is going to be full of hardships, and bad people, because of my past experiences, and relationships that have scarred me. It is only foolish to think that this world can satisfy me that I choose to turn away from God.

Because of pride, and fears that I hold close to my heart that in my daily choices I choose to walk away from Jesus. Every day is a constant battle, and the opposite of fear is love. Then choosing love means choosing God more than myself, and it is only in dying to myself that I am brought to new life. Therefore I am convinced that in this life that nothing can separate us from God’s love (Romans 8:38). Yes, there will be great trials but following Jesus comes with a price.

But knowing what awaits me in God’s kingdom pushes me forward. To press on to this life (Philippians 3:14), and to know that God’s peace, love and joy surpasses all that we can think of (Philippians 4:7). Who can comprehend the depth of God’s love? So I say build your life on Christ, His Word, His Truth, and Life. For there is no other way to enter the Kingdom of Heaven but only one. To be sure of who God says you are, to be affirmed of He who says you are. To never fear but to live boldly for God’s people, so that you may bear witness to them. Pray, and ask for what you need. The Lord who already knows what we need will supply them.

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin in me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need


Part 2- Following the Call

This path I have chosen wasn’t easy. I am, on my journey of discovery as I pray the best for you. May your dreams be a reality, aligned with God’s, that He’ll make you the happiest person alive because all He wants is your happiness. Without God, I am nothing. 

There are many calls for each of us, but which do we answer to?

My life is like a drama series, never-ending. Then there are times that I would really want to give up but I know, I shouldn’t because I’ve come this far, because of Jesus. I don’t want to miss anything for Him, and that was my motivation. Over time, my hunger and thirst grew, and I knew that Jesus was preparing me ahead.

The battle was real and I had to fight. I knew all that was happening because each time God spoke the truth, doubts seem to cloud my mind. Through the words of others, the questions I had in my mind would disappear because God would answer through them. It was as if He had the answer to everything.

And as time passed, I would rely more on His strength. He never fails, and never would. I almost seem to have the attack on all areas of my life, if not one where I would be particularly concerned.

When all goes well at school, and work, something would happen at home. How ungrateful I can be at times when I pushed God away and at times I will pray that my life be not as smooth so that I can rely more on God’s grace. Indeed by now I realised how much God has moved in my life and continue to do so in ways unknown to the human eye.

I love you Lord, all for your glory Lord. To you be highest praises now and forever more.

Dare to dream dreams for God. He’s all you’ll ever need.